Lately, I’ve come to understand that I have what’s called “emotional authority”, a key aspect within the system of Human Design. For those unfamiliar, Human Design is a beautiful tool for self-understanding, it helps you explore who you are at your core, and focusses on for example what energises you, and where your energy tends to drain away.

Unlike Edwin and Philou, who both have a sacral authority, meaning they instinctively feel a clear “yes” or “no” in their gut, my experience is quite different. My emotions fluctuate. One moment I feel certain, the next I’m unsure. Sometimes, I can move through ten different emotional states in a single day. And that means decision-making takes time. I need space, I need to wait for the emotional wave to settle before I can respond with clarity.

This has been especially evident over the past few days. We’ve had our share of small but annoying mishaps, the kind that, on a heavy emotional day, land with far more intensity than they should. But just as deeply as I feel the frustration, I also feel an almost overwhelming sense of joy and relief once things start to flow again, like now, as we prepare to move on with our journey, to take our next step.

And here’s the thing, this isn’t something I need to control. That’s the realisation I had this morning. My emotional authority isn’t something to tame, it’s something to respect, to honour. Sometimes, I just need to let the wave roll through me.

Yesterday marked a bit of a turning point. I found myself, for the first time in a long while, genuinely wondering whether I still wanted all of this. I said it out loud, not dramatically, just truthfully, at a moment when I was exhausted and overwhelmed. It startled me. But do you know what? It also lifted something. That release, that honesty, gave me the space to feel my emotions fully, instead of tucking them away. And after that, I could pick myself up again.

Becoming more aware of this process helps. It doesn’t always make me easier to be around, I know that. But the beauty is, there’s always another side to the wave. Perhaps you noticed it too, how yesterday afternoon, the energy shifted, and things became light again.

So I’m learning to let myself feel, to sit with it. And I imagine that’s something you’ll see reflected in our stories. Sometimes they’re bright and full of energy. Other times, they dip into the heavier parts of the journey. But more often than not, things even out, and we find our rhythm again.

Just a thought I felt like sharing with you, curious if others recognize this as well.

Written by: Mirjam