This week is all about self care, and I can feel how much it helps me, even when life on board gets hectic. This morning we found ourselves quite literally stuck in an anchor mess, with several boats tangled up and everyone stressed because their anchors would not come loose. At the same time, I had a call scheduled.

In that moment, I could clearly observe what was happening inside me, my body tightening and my mind racing. The stress was real. Eventually, I made the decision to cancel the call, something that goes completely against my principles. But I had to stay on deck and make sure we moved at the right time.

The moment I cancelled, a sense of calm washed over me. Suddenly, I could focus on one thing. That is when it hit me, you simply cannot do two things at once, at least not well. Sometimes you just need to choose, consciously.

So this week is about slowing down. After weeks full of activity on board, I have been starting my days with movement, meditation and breathing exercises. Afterwards, I work with full focus, prepare for school and then we have breakfast together. Lately, school has been starting a bit later, which comes with some resistance, both from Philou and from us, but I am sure it will settle as we all relax more.

In the afternoons, I try to take time for myself. That means Edwin gets his space too, and Philou learns to entertain herself. To my surprise, it is working beautifully. It creates space, inside and out. I can see more clearly again. My body feels better. I feel grounded and positive.

I have also been paying attention to what we eat and taking rest whenever possible. It feels good. I realise that rest creates clarity, much more than holding on to control ever could. Control has always been my anchor, the thing that keeps me steady. But now I see that letting go sometimes takes me further.

Written by: Mirjam